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11:02 PM
Friday, February 25, 2011 haven't blogged in awhile. to be honest, i haven't been feeling good lately. im tired, im stressed out. so many things to do, so many things to think about. life is full of shits. on thursday, i really wanted to cry my heart out. i went home, and i did. too much workload. just by thinking of what i need to do by tuesday. im suffocating. i don't know who to talk to, i don't know who i can rely on. and i texted naz. he's not good w words, all he says is "don't emo ><" his comfort words are like one sentence. which really didn't help. most of the time i helped myself. always telling myself everything's going to be alright. sometimes i just want to run to someone whose arm are wide open welcoming me home. i bet you do get that feeling sometimes. it may not necessary be your boyfriend. most of the time, i don't want people to tell me things i already heard like "life's like that" i just want a warm hug that makes me feel at home, that makes me feel that i can go through it. i don't normally show my emo side to people, only to those i feel close to. im always trying to bring a smile onto people's faces. my goal is to always always put a smile on the people's face, people whom i'm comfortable with, it doesn't matter if im unhappy or not. i tend to put people first. sadly. i feel so so so negative at the moment. i kinda feel i give people the feeling that im childish, not mature enough, and their encouragement is always on level 1. like im some 14 year old who needs to hear all those shits. i know already. i don't need to hear those. i want to go to someone throw my arms around him/her and cry my heart out because i really can't take the pressure. have a nice chat, maybe some ice cream and i'll feel better after that. better in the way when i tell myself i can do it, it makes me feel that i can do it. unless you have anything new, any words that can create a deep impact in my life, then tell me, if not, i'll be sick and tired o hearing the same thing. imma positive person, im strong and independent. but sometimes even the strongest do cry. i may appear to be happy, always laughing and joking around, that's because i don't want people to worry for me, because i know i can handle my own problems. but sometimes i do show my emo side, it's when i really feel too much pressure is upon me. well i know i'll feel better soon. soon. (: words spilled @ 11:02 PM /
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